Wasn't Worth Fighting For

They asked me why'd I let go. I thought about it for a while and then I realized .... it just wasn't worth fighting for anymore.

They say people either inspire you or drain you. I realized you did more draining than inspiring. Seeing your name across my phone would make me cringe. By the end of our conversations, I would be annoyed, frustrated, and drained. And you'd wonder why I hadn't hit you up in so long.

It was because it just wasn't worth fighting for anymore.

I remember how hard I used to fight for you. How I'd tell you that I didn't know what I would do without you in my life. But then I realized I had begin living my life without you for a long time now.

And day by day it became the norm. Because it just wasn't worth fighting for anymore.

We're on two different levels in two different places in our minds. And the things that make us close is no longer enough to keep us there. I think now I realize that our purpose of being was to simply help one another grow because if you haven't done anything else for me - certainly, that one thing can't be denied.

So Thank You...

Thank you for your lies. You taught me the value of honesty. Thank you for your inconsistency. Now I'm grateful for stability. Thank you for the competition. Now I cherish peace. Thank you for trying to break me. You taught me how to endure. Thank you for the hard times. It made me stronger. Thank you for not always appreciating my love. Now I have more love to give. Thank you for not supporting me. I'm more determined than ever before.

Thank you for showing me that losing this fight really made me a winner.

Too often we make pacts with fear rather than falling in love with courage. Too often the tasting of our tears become much more normal than the sight of our smiles. Too often the roadblocks of shame keep us from finding the good in goodbye. And we truly miss the lesson in knowing when to let go.

Now I know I'm a winner. Because that was one fight that just wasn't worth fighting for anymore.